I always will

med Bellatezzla

I always will

I held you close, then let you go
Your spirit left like melting snow
The tears kept falling with your last breath
I couldn’t bear the thought of death

Your collar still hanging by the door
I can’t call your name anymore
And that, somehow, cuts me deep
This quiet now that doesn’t sleep

Cause just because I’m not crying
Doesn’t mean I don’t miss you still
The silence doesn’t mean forgetting
It’s just what healing needs to build
And if I smile again someday
It doesn’t mean you’ve gone away
I love you now, I always will

I laughed today, then felt ashamed
Like joy should carry grief in chains
But you would never wish me pain
To be the only thing that stays

So I light a candle in the night
And trace your name in gentle light
Though my tears have learned to rest
Your memory still fills my chest

The guilt, it whispers soft and low
Shouldn’t love still overflow?
But grief is not a steady line
It’s hills and valleys through all time